I find that most of these posts are the same person who broke my heart, and who i cant stand.
Dear Mr Annoying,
Your name always comes to my head all the time and it can be good things but mostly it is bad things. I always think about you, ill never forget you even if i want to. You were my 1st boyfriend and my 1st kiss. Sometimes i like to think of the time when we were happy, at least i was. When we were in great America and you stayed behind with me even though you wanted to go on that ride that i found scary to go on, and how you just held me and put your head against mine and mine against yours. We didn't kiss but just stared at each other, that was the best moment for me. Then we would just hug and kiss and be all like love-doves. I miss those times or like when we went on that water ride and you sat behind me and held me while we went down, back then you were cute and i loved it but now things have changed, for the worst. Its not the fact that you broke my heart, that's why i hate you, its how you played with me before and after that I'm tired of. Before we went out you use to play a game with me, like you would like me-stop texting me-stop liking me-start liking someone else, over and over again. We went at that till the 3rd time i guess it was different because i made you be the one who made the first move.Then we went out for less than 2 weeks and you wanted to break up with me but your friends told you not to because you would regret it. Then i find this out and i cry my eyes out, it hurt. So the next day i had to be the one to come up to you to end it because you didn't want to hurt my feelings, even though i didn't want to end it. Then you come crawling back to me saying your sorry and you regret it, shocker, and like me i come running back and fall hard for you even though i never stopped liking you after the 1st time i liked you. So we play this whole love-dove scene again and again you abandon me and stop talking to me, so after that i was tired of it. It was to long that i wasted my time with you. I'm not sure if you still like me, but you keep coming to my head, as hard as i try to get you out of it. I have gotten better at getting you out and I'm proud of it, but of course i always lay in my bed and remember the good memories we had and the bad ones. Sometimes i even come up with ways to get you jealous, and pay for what you put me through. I have dreams of you but nothing like you being my prince charming just you standing there as if nothing were between us, and i wish that would actually happen. I feel as if i would like you to be my friend but I'm scared id fall for you again so I'm keeping a very far distance from you, hopefully i can find a guy who treats me better and knows that he wants me and doesn't just throw me out for another girl. I hope you stay out of my head.
-Bianca.
You.
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